William Samuel
Wodsong
Talks #2 - Side 1
Hello
everyone. Please be comfortable. The talk, the
subject matter today is not new to anyone, nor should not
be. And it is a timeless matter. It seems to be a great
concern to many right now because there is a tremendous
influx of messages coming from all directions. Oh, the
other day the National Enquirer had seventeen
advertisements for book, all purporting to be
metaphysical, mystical, occult, or just plain old good
luck, and for talismans and good luck ointments and all
that sort of thing. But the books promised everything,
metaphysically, from immediate and long-lasting health
to riches, to one’s ability to control anyone he liked, to a
better memory. One even offered sex prowess.
Metaphysically induced.
subject matter today is not new to anyone, nor should not
be. And it is a timeless matter. It seems to be a great
concern to many right now because there is a tremendous
influx of messages coming from all directions. Oh, the
other day the National Enquirer had seventeen
advertisements for book, all purporting to be
metaphysical, mystical, occult, or just plain old good
luck, and for talismans and good luck ointments and all
that sort of thing. But the books promised everything,
metaphysically, from immediate and long-lasting health
to riches, to one’s ability to control anyone he liked, to a
better memory. One even offered sex prowess.
Metaphysically induced.
Well now I have just had a letter from my dearest
friend Marianne who is presently in California, and
she tells me that California is simply awash with new
gurus, new teachers, new theories, and new ideas,
that everyone is busily running from one to the other.
And of course this is the thing that induces the
question I am asked so often: how do we know
whom to listen to? How do we know whom to study?
How do we know there is not going to be a little bit
of truth in this or that or something else?
I
had a young lad once ask me about whether or not
he should go to India and study there. And I
encouraged him to go. That was Hinduism. He went,
he saw the light. The light developed over a pace and
he is now about his Father’s business. Another lad
asked me about the possibility of studying with
someone in Hong Kong. And I said by all means.
Another asked about studying in Japan, to attend a
particular ashram in Japan and I said by all means go.
Well I have been asked how I can include all of these
ideas. Someone else wanted to attend Christian
Science class instruction under a mister so and so and
I said well by all means yes if you can get in the class
without waiting five years. And if you cannot get
into his class then there are other classes you can get
in.
he should go to India and study there. And I
encouraged him to go. That was Hinduism. He went,
he saw the light. The light developed over a pace and
he is now about his Father’s business. Another lad
asked me about the possibility of studying with
someone in Hong Kong. And I said by all means.
Another asked about studying in Japan, to attend a
particular ashram in Japan and I said by all means go.
Well I have been asked how I can include all of these
ideas. Someone else wanted to attend Christian
Science class instruction under a mister so and so and
I said well by all means yes if you can get in the class
without waiting five years. And if you cannot get
into his class then there are other classes you can get
in.
So the question arises, and the point of the first part
of our talk now will be how do we know whom to
listen to? Which pathway should we follow?
Pathway…Pathway… pathway. The bird up there
laughs with us. There is no pathway to the goal when
one is standing on it. When one is sitting on it. When
one is breathing it. The goal is right here. Right
where one is. Oh I do not mean here with Bill
Samuel, after your pilgrimage here to Alabama that
you have found the goal and that you had a pathway
here. No way. That is not what I mean. There is no
way there to light, enlightenment but to be light and
enlightenment.
But I am getting ahead of myself now. Let me point
out a few things that perhaps you have not thought
about. Whatever path one travels, and I hate to use
that word path but what can I do? That is how it
seems. It seems we start out as a very ignorant stupid
mortal and we carry this ignorant stupid mortal along
acquiring wisdom from this teacher or that one. And
we walk a very very long pathway in our attempt to
arrive at some light, real light, genuine light, honest
light, something that will really do what it is
supposed to do. But, in any event, whatever path one
travels Eastern, Western, heathen for Pete’s sake,
mystical or occult, secret, it can be voodoo or it can
be metaphysical. It can be a scientific metaphysics or
it can be a religious metaphysics.
But now listen. All of them produce in their most
effective moments, all of these pathways, all these
systems, all of these philosophies produce in their
very best moments, an experience that is identical.
Now who will deny this? The mystical experience
that comes from Zen Buddhism when it has been
written of and spoken of is an identical utterance
when it comes from a Taoist, or whether it comes
from a Catholic, one of the early Catholics of the
Christian church, or one of the latter day Catholics.
The mystical experience would appear always to be
the same.
Now a scenario for all of this goes a little bit like
this: whatever pathway one chooses, the pathway
itself, either intentionally or unintentionally, and
usually unintentionally, brings one, brings the
disciple (the one who walks the pathway) to a place
where he simply gives up.
Now why does he give up? Everyone does not give
up but everyone who has a mystical experience gives
up. Perhaps it is the frustration of the pathway, in that
it fails to live up to its promises. Or it could be that
the pathway promised great health, wealth and joy,
that sort of thing. And it worked initially but then, as
the years grind on and as a lot of Christmases go by
and a lot of new years arrive, it would seem that the
joints grow stiff, and the back gets stiff and the eyes
are not quite as bright as they were and one does not
hear quite as well and we say gee whiz, the
philosophy is not working now as it did before. And
so again there is a great giving up at that point. Or
perhaps that giving up is sometimes induced by
personal tribulations that are too great to bear, great
depressions that settle over the humanity of us. But
in any event however it is induced and by whatever
route one is walking, travelling, and studying a
turning point is reached and a giving up takes place.
Now, I am pointing out that the giving up is the same
whether one is going the Buddhist route, the Zen
Buddhist route, the Taoist route, or an independent
route, as I guess you could say this has been for me.
But in any event one comes to a giving up place and
so the question is giving up what? What does one
give up? Well it is always the same. Every discipline
has spoken of the same giving up. It is a giving up of
some degree of personal self-importance, giving up
some degree of a human sense of self, of humanhood,
a surrendering, a giving up, a letting go of that old
boog-a-boo ego.
All right a giving it up but to whom or to what? And
it seems that the giving up is accompanied by a sense
that ‘all right, I give up, but I yield to something
greater. To something greater than this personal sense
of my self that has to this point availed nothing.’ A
yielding to, if you were a Taoist you would say to
Tao. Or a yielding to God. Or if you were a
fundamentalist perhaps you would say I am yielding
to the blood of Jesus or something like that. Or you
might be giving up to Nellie D Grabbenbaker. But in
any event all those, by whatever discipline they have
travelled, in speaking of the event and what appeared
to induce it, inevitably speak of a giving up and a
giving up of a personal sense of selfhood and a
yielding, giving it up, not in despair to nothing but
giving and yielding and despair to an inferable
something.
All
right what is next in this scenario we are talking
about? Whenever this yielding happens always,
always comes a grand sense of relief. You can read
countless accounts of this relief. As it is spoken of it
seems as though guilt has been lifted. It is as though
darkness has been taken off, as though scales had
fallen from the eyes. And whatever the discipline of
the world one is following, if it is organized, and has
an institutional something behind it, inevitably they
take credit for this grand sense of relief that follows
the giving up. Well it seems to me that…and this, of
course, fortifies and strengthens their basis for being
in a tangible world of organizations, and they take
credit for this grand sense of relief that everyone
feels.
And of course, there, unfortunately it works like this
too in the scenario that we call the human experience.
The disciple feeling this sense of relief inevitably he
or she knows that the release is honest, that there
really has been a lessening of the sense of guilt, a
lessening of a sense of person or ego. And what does
this do? It strengthens that one’s belief in the power
and the importance of the discipline or pathway that
he or she is walking.
about? Whenever this yielding happens always,
always comes a grand sense of relief. You can read
countless accounts of this relief. As it is spoken of it
seems as though guilt has been lifted. It is as though
darkness has been taken off, as though scales had
fallen from the eyes. And whatever the discipline of
the world one is following, if it is organized, and has
an institutional something behind it, inevitably they
take credit for this grand sense of relief that follows
the giving up. Well it seems to me that…and this, of
course, fortifies and strengthens their basis for being
in a tangible world of organizations, and they take
credit for this grand sense of relief that everyone
feels.
And of course, there, unfortunately it works like this
too in the scenario that we call the human experience.
The disciple feeling this sense of relief inevitably he
or she knows that the release is honest, that there
really has been a lessening of the sense of guilt, a
lessening of a sense of person or ego. And what does
this do? It strengthens that one’s belief in the power
and the importance of the discipline or pathway that
he or she is walking.
Well
let us talk about this feeling of relief that comes
about for just a moment. We have all felt it. It is the
same for all mankind. It is as physical as anything
can be physical. What is physical but the means by
which spiritual is made plain and the two are one.
But in any event it is this physical feeling of relief
that comes from giving up and letting go, which has
been spoken of by countless people. Again, from
whatever path they came from and usually in the
same terms, it is as though something warm had been
poured ove him, and it drains the tensions away, it
washes the guilts away. There is a physical feeling
that is actually like water pouring from the fingers
and toes. Now Christianity calls this experience,
which incidentally is very natural and very normal
for everyone. It is not so often recognised for what it
is, but when it is recognised for what it is, that
experience has been called the holy baptism by
Christianity. It has been called other things in the
other disciplines but it is always the same experience.
about for just a moment. We have all felt it. It is the
same for all mankind. It is as physical as anything
can be physical. What is physical but the means by
which spiritual is made plain and the two are one.
But in any event it is this physical feeling of relief
that comes from giving up and letting go, which has
been spoken of by countless people. Again, from
whatever path they came from and usually in the
same terms, it is as though something warm had been
poured ove him, and it drains the tensions away, it
washes the guilts away. There is a physical feeling
that is actually like water pouring from the fingers
and toes. Now Christianity calls this experience,
which incidentally is very natural and very normal
for everyone. It is not so often recognised for what it
is, but when it is recognised for what it is, that
experience has been called the holy baptism by
Christianity. It has been called other things in the
other disciplines but it is always the same experience.
Now we have always experienced this sense of
baptism every time we have given up and let God
take charge of our affairs. I do not mean giving up to
do nothing. I mean give up to allow God to be in
charge of our affairs and then do under those
circumstances what that relief, that grand sense of
relief allows us to see to do.
All right, I will ask you to listen again, that with this
grand sense of relief what happens most often is the
disciple’s reaction from this honest experience will,
in one way or another, turn around on him to not only
reinforce the institution or pathway in his head, that
he has been studying. And excuse my use of a word
like ‘in his head’. I cannot help it, I have to use
words. But it not only reinforces his belief in that
organization but lo and behold it reinforces the very
old man, or the sense of himself who had the guilt in
the first place.
Now listen. It is difficult to find words to say this.
Christianity does nothing, virtually nothing, nor do
any of the disciplines really, to stop the
self-righteousness that follows so quickly on the
heels 0f this mystical experience that comes with the
yielding, simple yielding, simple giving up of
personal sense of self. And the very sense of ego that
yields, lest we are careful, is so thrilled by the
accomplishment that the thrill renews the ego rather
than diminish it. And lo and behold we are right back
where we started.
All right, let us carry on with this thing. With the
yielding, with the giving up, which incidentally can
be done right here right now, one does not have to be
an ego. We will explain later in this talk just
precisely what the ego is and why and how it can be
given up immediately without long arduous
pathways, years of meditation and study. But we will
get to that in just a minute.
Let us continue with this feeling that comes along
which we have spoken of as a sense of relief and with
a feeling of having been washed clean, from which
comes the holy baptism. There is another physical
feeling that very often comes with this yielding, that
comes most often with an unconscious yielding. It
was written of very often in the early days of each
discipline. Unless perhaps maybe the voodooists did
not write about it, or the independents, but those
who did spoke of a grand stirring in the solar plexus.
Tumult in the bowels, it was spoken of because it is
so physical and sensual in nature, and because it is so
often accompanied with a sense of singleness or
oneness and a sense of desirelessness. It has been
referred to, in Christianity at least as the holy union.
It is spoken of in the orient as the divine intercourse.
So many disciples of many of the pathways still
speak of it as the divine intercourse.
Now another one of the physical things that seem to
accompany this giving up, this letting go, this ending
of one’s sense of humanhood is a feeling… bear in
mind that all of these things, while I am naming them
one by one by one and starting at the so-called lowest
level of them and building up to what is supposed to
be the highest of the spiritual attainments…can all
happen simultaneously. And there are none totally
separated from the other. There is a degree of all of
them in each of them. And there is a sense of
eachness all of them. Well another one comes as a
sense of lightness, freshness, sort of like cool air, a
cool refreshing air. It has been hailed as the holy
breath. I am sure you have heard of that in your
studies.
Remember now, I am saying these great mystical
experiences, none of which can be poo-pooed, they
are experiences which are a joy to experience, to be,
and that are available immediately, to come as wings
on the feet for all of us. Any scholar can see that they
are the same by way of any discipline.
Now there is a final one that is supposed to be the
grandest of them all, a sense of peace, an all-rightness
that is accompanied with an almost a disorientating
light, but a feeling of timeless singleness, a feeling of
oneness of everything. And always with this feeling a
knowledge that peace and all-rightness are the
genuine and honest fact of being.
The Eastern discipline makes no bone about the last
one here, as being the most significant. It speaks of
the rest of them as being somewhat lower in degree.
The last one is the most significant because it allows,
and demands actually, a total yielding of the yielder.
It calls for the demise of the one who surrenders. It
ends the one walking along the pathway. There is not
even that consciousness any longer of a person or a
human that is struggling to climb his way up, to try
to get to God’s belt or something. And it is highly
venerated, this last experience because it leaves a
timeless sense of consciousness only on the scene.
For
myself, these experiences come as one
experience.
It seems always that there has been no interval of
time between them. I do not know how else to say it
except that from one experience to the next there is
an absolute certainty that all of the human tolderoll in
between was as though it were light slowed down, or
entrapped light in which nothing really mattered.
What does matter is the light-to-light experience
between which, as if it could really be interrupted,
but between which all of the aging processes, all of
the time processes and so forth are understood to be
nothing.
experience.
It seems always that there has been no interval of
time between them. I do not know how else to say it
except that from one experience to the next there is
an absolute certainty that all of the human tolderoll in
between was as though it were light slowed down, or
entrapped light in which nothing really mattered.
What does matter is the light-to-light experience
between which, as if it could really be interrupted,
but between which all of the aging processes, all of
the time processes and so forth are understood to be
nothing.
I might point out that the obverse of this is true. If it
can seem, humanly, that we have a human experience
that we call good, most certainly there is a
delineating experience within humanhood to make
that plain. Humanly we might call that a bad
experience. I went from one bad experience to
another bad experience and it seemed that the same
was true, that there had been no intervening time in
between. I remember the Korean War, and ten years
earlier there had been World War II. I was in combat
in both of those experiences. When, after ten years, I
found myself back in combat leading troops up and
down hills and doing all of the things a soldier is
called on to do in combat, it seemed to me as though
here had been no intervening time at all. And yet
that intervening time included marriage, two sons
and a home and the experience of a civilian in a
business world.
So the obverse is true too but the peak-to-peak
experience that all of the disciplines are aiming for,
the experience of peace, the peace that is beyond
understanding, is the same no matter what discipline
one follows. It is spoken of in the same terms
whether written of by an Indian, a Jew, a Christian, or
a heathen, whatever heathen is. And I am sure the
birds singing are singing of the same experience. And
I know, I know that when the wind blows the trees
tell of that experience.
Ok, so much for that. The experiences induced by a
frustrating letting go, or giving up, and to whom? To
God. A giving up of what? As the giving up of one’s
personal sense of self. And inevitably it is
accompanied by a grand sense of relief, of I am not
guilty of all the sins of commission or omission. Lo
and behold everything is all right.
Well all of the garden tractors have started up and the
lawnmowers so we have moved inside. And we are
inside Woodsong now for the conclusion of our talk.
I guess the simple point that has been made here is
that with the study we began with the goal of all the
other disciplines. Their goal is the recognition that
life, awareness itself is identity. We began at that
point. The purpose of other disciplines is to allow
one that grand peace that is past understanding that
comes with letting go a personal sense of self, the
one to whom awareness has been given, to simply be
awareness itself and joy in the joy of being awareness
itself. We began at that point. All of our writings and
all of our teachings have, for lo these many years,
begun with the acceptance of God-awareness, the
awareness of the divine mind, as the starting point,
the identity as which we live and move and have our
being.
I have, in essence, said that all of the disciplines of
the world, to include the metaphysical or scientific
metaphysical philosophies as they are currently
taught or practiced or apparently almost universally
believed, began with a little speck in time and space,
like a spot on a motion picture screen. That goes
through all of the gyrations of study, learning,
putting off, overcoming, healing, enlightenment after
enlightenment, pit of hell after pit of hell in order to
one day perceive that one is not just the speck in
space. The little spot on the corner of the screen. But
that, rather one is the entire screen itself upon which,
and as which all of the scenes unfold. We identify as
awareness within which all world scenes appear.
Once upon a time it was as though we identified as
perhaps a bug in a garden. And lo it was a beautiful
garden, it had roses along the borders, it had violets
in the centre, gladioli here and there, all of the
beautiful flowers. But it also had clods and weeds
and poison ivy and brambles and briers. And as an
ant e poked our way about the garden to examine first
this flower and then that one to determine which was
the best and which we liked and which we did not.
And then finally, in grand frustration,one day it
dawned on us that we were the garden entire. And
that everything in the garden, every flower, every
bramble, every brier, every insect about the business
of trying to find its way and make its determination,
every one was garden itself and at this point we
stopped identifying as a struggling ant about the
business of fighting a battle of weeds and brambles,
to be garden. And to perceive that each flower in the
garden was only another quality or attribute of
garden itself.
The question comes, is it necessary to have the
mystical experience of the light, the mystical
experience of the holy baptism, the sense of lightness
and forgiveness? Is it necessary to have that tangible
experience this tangible world before one can begin
taking awareness itself to be identity, before one can
begin to think out as awareness itself, as
God-awareness? Does one have to have the mystical
experience first? And the answer is absolutely not.
Absolutely no. We take awareness to be the who and
the what we are. God-awareness to be the who and
what we are. And we take it on faith if necessary. If it
should be, there is no conscious recognition of never
having felt the grand forgiveness or the peace. We
take that identification on faith if necessary. We think
out from, live out from, be out from the position of
God-awareness about the business of God-being.
And lo and behold, when we do, when we do we find
that all of the experiences of the many pathways
begin to happen, hand over fist, hard pressed, shaken
together and running over they happen. It is as
though we had meditated for years and years and
years with little or no results when suddenly results
happen. It is as though we had studied the Buddhists
discipline or the Hindu discipline or the Taoist
discipline to little or no avail, awaiting some grand
road to Damascus enlightening experience so that we
could feel we were on our way. And lo and behold it
all happens. It happens quickly without wait, without
the long years of hard study, disappointing
anticipation, it happens. We can take awareness right
now to be the who and the what we are. And this is
where we began. This is the beginning the ancients
spoke of. Blessed is he who has found the beginning
let him stay there.
Well obviously one takes on a sense of a new
identity. He has let go a false sense of identity. And
here is where I find such weakness in the instruction
that comes from our metaphysical philosophies. The
term mortal mind is often used but mortal mind is
seldom defined, if ever. The term the old man is often
used, put off the old man. But just what do we mean
by put off the old man? Churchdom has indicated
that putting off the old man means simply getting rid
of the bad habits of the old man, but it leaves the old
man on the scene still, a very purified, sanctified,
sanctimonious, self-righteous old man but he is still
there on the scene trying to equate himself with God.
What is mortal mind that is put off? First, let me say
this, that once we take awareness to be the identity
we are we have put off the old man. And let me
explain just how this is so. Who is the one that feels
he does not know? Who is the one who is forever
searching after truth? Seeking and find. Who is the
one who is trying to arrive at an altered state of
consciousness that induces a sense of at-one-ment
with God? It is the old man of us. The old man of us
is the one, or the ego, or the role we play, when we
play the one to whom we believe awareness has been
given.
Now
let me say that again. Right here right now here
we sit listening. The concept that hangs in and
lingers longest with us is that there is a me sitting
here to whom this awareness that listens, thinks,
feels, has been given. There is a me who says this
awareness is mine. Well there is no such me. There is
no such ego to whom life has been given. But there is
life present right here right now. Awareness is present
right here right now. Awareness and life being the
same thing as I use it here in this context. Awareness
is here. Yes. And there is the body that we say life
has been put into or given to. A body that is stupid or
does not know, that is struggling and striving for a
healing. Yes. But where does that body exist? Within
awareness. Awareness, consciousness is not in that
body.
we sit listening. The concept that hangs in and
lingers longest with us is that there is a me sitting
here to whom this awareness that listens, thinks,
feels, has been given. There is a me who says this
awareness is mine. Well there is no such me. There is
no such ego to whom life has been given. But there is
life present right here right now. Awareness is present
right here right now. Awareness and life being the
same thing as I use it here in this context. Awareness
is here. Yes. And there is the body that we say life
has been put into or given to. A body that is stupid or
does not know, that is struggling and striving for a
healing. Yes. But where does that body exist? Within
awareness. Awareness, consciousness is not in that
body.
Do you see? Awareness is going on right this minute.
The ego, the old man, the liar from the beginning, the
one that so tenaciously would mimic God, in all
ways, is an hypothetical ego that says this awareness
is mine. And I identify as the me who says this
awareness is mine. There is no such one, that is the
old man. Now to think out from the position of a me
that says this awareness is mine, to think out from
that position is to live mortal mind, to live a fraud, to
live an identity or an ego that does not exist. Now
this idea is neither new nor unique with me. You
have heard this many times in many ways from other
places. It seems that it is a common statement that
comes with enlightenment via whatever discipline
that enlightenment appears to arrive.
Catherine of Sienna, one day after a period of
introspective prayer and grand enlightenment
suddenly she arose and said, my me is God, nor do I
see any other me but my God himself. Meaning that
there is no personal identity to whom life has been
given.
And if we take it out of the religious context, the
religious frame, Dr Lang, from England, world noted
psychiatrust, did a few months ago address the
national meeting of psychiatrists from all over the
world and gave the keynote address. And to
paraphrase very liberally he did say in effect,
“gentleman, for all these years we, as psychiatrists,
have been trying to get at the root of the human
problem, and when we finally arrived at the root of a
human problem we then did all the good we could to
heal that problem for the ego, so that the ego could
go on its way unencumbered and unburdened by its
previous burden”. And then he said “but gentleman,
all of our study now indicates that there is no ego to
heal. We have been spinning our wheels in the sand.
We have been wasting time. Check me out on this
and see”. This is the Lang school of psychiatry
coming on strong, saying that an ego does not even
exist.
And
what again is ego? Ego right here right now, in
its simplest terms, is the idea that this awareness, this
life that is perceiving, at the moment looking outside
at a black walnut just green with spring, and at the
cotton trees in the distance waving, this awareness
that right now feels a chair beneath it, floor under its
feet, that this awareness belongs to a me. Who is this
me who says awareness is mine? There is no such
me. And to let it go, to let it go can be done
effortlessly. In the
same way one can let go the belief of a flat earth. We
may base all of our calculations on the idea that the
earth is flat but the earth is not flat. So we can let go
of the concept of it. We can let go of the concept of a
personal possessor of life. There is no such personal
possessor of life. But life is right here, right now.
its simplest terms, is the idea that this awareness, this
life that is perceiving, at the moment looking outside
at a black walnut just green with spring, and at the
cotton trees in the distance waving, this awareness
that right now feels a chair beneath it, floor under its
feet, that this awareness belongs to a me. Who is this
me who says awareness is mine? There is no such
me. And to let it go, to let it go can be done
effortlessly. In the
same way one can let go the belief of a flat earth. We
may base all of our calculations on the idea that the
earth is flat but the earth is not flat. So we can let go
of the concept of it. We can let go of the concept of a
personal possessor of life. There is no such personal
possessor of life. But life is right here, right now.
Now this new view, this new sense of identification
that automatically lets go an old sense of
identification does not alter anything at first. There
are no great gongs going off or rockets flashing in the
sky. There might be a grand warmness and gentleness
in the heart when one suddenly realises that identity
is not sitting in a room looking about at tables and
chairs or outside at squirrels. But that identity,
identity includes the room, the table and the chairs
and the squirrels. We may very well joy in the
expanded sense of identity as being infinitely more
than we ever thought it was. But we still see trees.
We still look down and see the fingers and toes of a
sense of identity that we used to limit ourselves to.
But we are infinitely more than that. Indeed identity
is all awareness perceives. And it is not the personal
possession of Bill, or Ruth, or Mary, or Jan. It is
God’s awareness. The divine mind’s awareness.
Infinite awareness is the identity one is. Eternal
awareness is the identity one is. That position can be
assumed right now, without wait, and without
struggle, because it is a fact right now. We do not
have to wait until all the maps of the flat earth are
reprinted, declaring that the earth was not flat but is
round, we do not have to wait until all the printed
material in the universe begins disclaiming the ego or
a personal possessor of life. We can take that identity
to be our own this moment because it is who and
what we are this moment.
About
this false sense of I, about this false identity,
just who is the one who struggles to understand the
truth? He is always the one who says, I am aware. I
am the one who possesses an awareness of my own. I
am the possessor, the container of life. I am the one
who looks at the sights and the sounds of my own
awareness, and then make this my determinations
about whether this is valuable or that is invaluable,
this is good, that is bad. I like, I do not like. That is
the one who struggles to understand. The one who
struggles to understand says, I am the one who uses
all of the sights and sounds within awareness in order
to get along in the world, as though the sights and the
sounds within awareness were separate and apart
from him. As though he were one speck on the grand
screen of awareness and the sights and sounds on the
rest of the screen were separate and apart, yes
separate and apart from the speck, from the ‘I possess
life’, but not separate and apart from the screen, the
screen of awareness, God’s comprehending going on
which is right now listening to these words. Who is
the one who understands the truth? Inevitably the one
who understands the truth is the one who is simply
being awareness itself, only, right now, and has let go
of the concept of being a little limited speck in space
that possess it, owns it, uses it.
just who is the one who struggles to understand the
truth? He is always the one who says, I am aware. I
am the one who possesses an awareness of my own. I
am the possessor, the container of life. I am the one
who looks at the sights and the sounds of my own
awareness, and then make this my determinations
about whether this is valuable or that is invaluable,
this is good, that is bad. I like, I do not like. That is
the one who struggles to understand. The one who
struggles to understand says, I am the one who uses
all of the sights and sounds within awareness in order
to get along in the world, as though the sights and the
sounds within awareness were separate and apart
from him. As though he were one speck on the grand
screen of awareness and the sights and sounds on the
rest of the screen were separate and apart, yes
separate and apart from the speck, from the ‘I possess
life’, but not separate and apart from the screen, the
screen of awareness, God’s comprehending going on
which is right now listening to these words. Who is
the one who understands the truth? Inevitably the one
who understands the truth is the one who is simply
being awareness itself, only, right now, and has let go
of the concept of being a little limited speck in space
that possess it, owns it, uses it.
Well now what does it require, what does it require to
give up the possessor? Well it is just as easy as
letting go nothing, because that is what the possessor
is, nothing. The possessor is a dream. The possessor
is a belief that life is in matter. To stop being the
possessor, to stop being me is to stop doing those
things the possessor does. And what is that? Well the
possessor is forever looking on the sights and sounds
of awareness and saying, they are out there. They are
not me. That is a tree over there and I am here. Me, a
body that weighs 150lbs or some such thing as that.
And how does one stop seeing things as outside
himself when actually the view of things does not
change a bit? How does one stop doing it? Well to
identify as awareness, it is so easy to say, why the
tree I see is the tree I be. The tree is included within
identity, and identity is this very awareness that is
going on here now. I identify as life living, and
suddenly we find ourselves with a brotherhood never
experienced before, never known before. Suddenly
we see that all the people we see are but the infinite
appearing of an infinite and eternal identity.
All right now, it has been taught so often that to take
this grand identity as oneself is to give up and lose
your personal sense of self, that is to lose one’s ego,
that is that it melts into some grand charismatic light.
Now this is the charge often brought against Eastern
philosophy and sometimes brought to bear against
Christian Science, but it is not so at all. Ego is still
present to be seen within the grand scope of
awareness, but it is understood for what it is. The
grand scope of awareness still includes the tree and
its shadow, and the shadow inevitably leads straight
away to the tree. Awareness knows that tree is tree
and shadow is shadow, so ego is still plainly evident
to be seen. Ego, shadow that leads straight away to
egolessness or the divine Ego, that God is. And that
God is God, and that ego is Ego. Oh, it is very
interesting to see how clearly one does begin to see
when he identifies as awareness itself, life itself and
not as one who possesses life. Has it stuffed in his
body like an apple in his pocket.
Now listen gently. Right now, right now you hear a
sound coming from a tape recorder. Perhaps you hear
the sound of automobiles in the distance or children
playing. Is it not possible to simply be the awareness
within which this sound sounds and the children
laugh and the automobiles in the distance sound? Is it
not possible to simply not be the one that says, “this
is my awareness?” Oh yes it is possible. And to let
go of that me who says, ‘my’ is to let go the weight
of Job, the weight of the world.
Now you know folks one must see this for oneselves.
And it is not done with effort. You see, awareness is
being awareness whether we believe we are the
possessors of awareness or not. We have believed
the smell of smoke.
So to let go the possessor of awareness is effortless
on the one hand and yet it must be done, consciously
done but it is done with tenderness and love. It is
done with gentleness and it is done with a soft soft
touch. You see it is like opening one’s eyes, it is like
awakening, it is like relaxing, just relaxing and
letting go trials and tribulations. Let them go to the
wind. It is like opening one’s hand, loosing and
letting go a gas balloon with which we have been
long enamoured. It is like ending the struggle. It is
like going home to a warm and happy place. It is like
coming home again, only to discover why this is
where have always been. This is what we have
always been. We have always been just life being
life, living.
We have always been awareness itself. There has
never been a time, nor a situation, no matter how
terrible it seemed, no matter how pain-filled or grief-
stricken it seemed, when life or awareness or
consciousness was not just going right on, being
aware.
We have always been aware of trees and children and
the sounds of things. Awareness itself has just gone
right on being aware, or it has always been the one
who has said, this is my awareness. Who has been the
one who has suffered? Who has been the great judge
on the scene? Who says, I do not like this sight and
that sound? And I want to get rid of this and I want
to change that. I want this and that. It has always
been this impostor who has been miserable, or happy,
according to how well things go in his little, small
frame of reference, as to what is good and what is
bad.
That is the one, the possessor is the one that has
always been engaged in such great prodigious
thought taking and planning and calculating and
arranging and rearranging. He is the one who created
time. A time that was very necessary for his
sequential events to transpire. And that impostor is
that miserable one that we let go., just as quickly as
we take life, consciousness itself to be the only
identity in all existence, the only identity in all
existence.
I
guess, I guess the most difficult thing I have found
to communicate is the fact that there is but one
awareness. I am not the only one who has found it
difficult. I have read countless instances where those
who have made this simple, gentle, marvellous
discovery that awareness is single, alone, only and all
have found it relatively impossible to look out at that
object within awareness called people and say, listen,
awareness is single, alone, only and all. And then see
what appear to be others understanding that. Most
often those who attempt to make this point are forced
to give up or else find themselves coming down from
the position and reaching out and talking to others as
though they could themselves perceive and
understand rather than just appear to. Oh how
difficult to make this point. How difficult to make
this point. Else it would be understood how the
Oriental could say, about the appearance of people,
that people are straw dogs. There is no life there. And
people, life exists as the awareness that perceives
people. And people are the tangible appearing of one
life made plain.
to communicate is the fact that there is but one
awareness. I am not the only one who has found it
difficult. I have read countless instances where those
who have made this simple, gentle, marvellous
discovery that awareness is single, alone, only and all
have found it relatively impossible to look out at that
object within awareness called people and say, listen,
awareness is single, alone, only and all. And then see
what appear to be others understanding that. Most
often those who attempt to make this point are forced
to give up or else find themselves coming down from
the position and reaching out and talking to others as
though they could themselves perceive and
understand rather than just appear to. Oh how
difficult to make this point. How difficult to make
this point. Else it would be understood how the
Oriental could say, about the appearance of people,
that people are straw dogs. There is no life there. And
people, life exists as the awareness that perceives
people. And people are the tangible appearing of one
life made plain.
If this were easy to communicate it would be
understood how Huang Pooh, in his famous last talk
that he ever made said: “Gentleman remember please
that the perceived does not perceive.” Oh we can
understand this well enough when we look in the
mirror and see an image in the mirror we say, my
goodness the image there appears to live and move,
have life and breath in it, yet we understand that that
is only a reflection and that awareness that does the
perceiving of the image is where the life is. But how
difficult it seems to be to comprehend that all life is
one life perceived within one awareness. And whose
awareness, friend, whose? This awareness that is you.
This awareness that listens, right here right now is
the one awareness of being. God’s awareness. It does
not belong to Bill, Mary, or John or Joe, though
awareness certainly includes within it the appearance
of Bill, and Mary, and John, and Joe and countless
others, the many. But awareness is single, alone. To
identify as the screen is to see that Bill, Mary, John,
Joe, rabbit, aeroplane, world, universe is included
within the single selfhood that one awareness is, and
that that single selfhood is God-self. Self-aware.
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